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About 6 years ago I was only 19 years old with NO Kids and NO JOB! All I did was grind out in the hood during the day and party at night with my friends!! And I mean we used to party hard. At that time in my life if you were to ask me what my plans were for the future I would have started laughing in your face. I’m ashamed to admit it but I used to Gang bang hard with the Bloods even though I was raised better and I knew better. But as we all know the life of a Gang banger is really short.

I’ve been shot and stabbed within the same week, and the following week after that my best friend was killed brutally. That is when I decided that the gang life wasn’t for me anymore. I wanted to get out but that is easier said than done. They used to say if you want to get out you must want to die! Not a good situation to be in.

Well one day I was assigned to be the driver for top rank gang leader who was supposed to rob Prosperity bank by method of forgery by check. I wasn’t the one who committed the felony offense but when the police came I was the only one who they took to jail. Sometimes the lord throws hurdles in our road so that we may jump to were we need to be in life. I was so distraught that I incriminated myself even worse to the DA while I was being interrogated. I spent about 2 weeks in jail because I was too terrified to tell my mom where I was. I even thought about suicide. I finally got the galls to contact my mother and I had to hear it from her and my step-father. My bail was 150,000 and the only reason my parents could even afford to bail me out is because my step-father had just one a settlement from a case he had pending from 5 years ago. I was looking at 5 years in prison but since it was my first offense I ended up receiving 3 years probation and deferred adjudication. The day I got out of jail I got my first job ever! And the gang let me out with no consequences because I didn’t snitch on the head dog whom at the time was a two time convicted felon. I vowed to change my life, but it wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. Months after that, I remember my heart beating through my chest as I drive down I-10 with 20 pounds of marijuana and over 1,000 X pills in the back of my truck hid in luggage. I’m not bragging nor am I at all proud of my past, but I still have picture to remind me constantly of how God brought me a long, long, long, long, way. I remember thinking how did I fall back into this trap, I remember praying to God, “please Lord don’t allow me to get caught, I promise I will go to church if you allow me to make it this last time.”

Well I made it back home safely jut in-time to receive a phone call from a young lady which whom I’ve haven’t heard from in over 6 years. She asked me if I had any kids, and I jokingly replied, “None that I know of.” She then giggled and said, “Please don’t be mad at me for calling out the blue, but I have someone that wants to meet you.” Then she handed the phone to her 6 year old son and he asked me, “Are really his daddy”!!!!!!!!!!!!! WoW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She waited 6 years to tell me this. I’ve missed out on a lot. At the time I felt like life couldn’t get any worse. So not knowing what to do I hung up the phone and I immediately went to T-mobile and changed my number and went to work as if nothing happened. Tears come to my eyes now as I write this knowing how far God has brought me. I don’t expect anyone else to know my joy, but God has been so good to me. He has brought me so far.   

The next Sunday my mom begged and begged me to come to church with her. I felt like I was obligated to go because he brought me home safely from my big trip. So I went. I have been to church many times before in the past, but this time was different. I can’t explain why, but I felt like the Lord was talking directly to me through the pastor. Then right before the pastor closed out his message he said, “I know there’s someone out there who needs to hear this.” Then he asked, “If you die today, where are you going?” BAM!!!!!!!!! It was like the spirit was in me and I wasn’t sure what was going on. I was scared for the first time in my life. I don’t really remember what happened after that, but they told me I ran to the front of the church crying and I gave my life to Christ. I for the first time in my life accepted Christ as my personal Lord and Savior.

As soon as I got home I called my son and apologized for missing his birthday and I promised him that I would never miss another one. We have been so close every since and I can’t believe I was going to deny him. That would have been the biggest mistake of my life. Now my son just turned 9 and I just turned 25 and he love his daddy.

For the first time in my life I know where I’m going to go when I die!

I now have a beautiful family, a beautiful home, a degree, nice cars, 4 big pit bulls, and a dirt bike which I ride with the kids as much as I can! I have worked very hard since I caught my case. I had to lose all my friends from the past and start all over as a new man. My mind isn’t the same at all and I am still paying for alot of mistakes I made when I was younger. Most of my old buddies are either dead or in jail and the ones that are still here, None of them can believe it when I tell them that I have settled down. But I don’t want to put off like I’ve turned into the Golden Child, I still make mistakes everyday but I’ve come along way! 

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